Proverbs Woman

I never thought Id find love again. In fact I wasn't sure Id be able to stomach even starting something new. The whole idea of getting to know someone and letting them into your heart is very nerve racking to me. But I thought why not. But truth is we weren't technically new to dating. We had already dated but I had lost touch with myself and my relationship with God grew weaker and weaker and what we had fell apart quickly. We decided to forget the past and rebuild a foundation to a new and healthy relationship. After looking back at relationship failures and ruining the original start to our relationship I realized I had a lot of personal growth to do and who better to help with that but the big man upstairs. I've always looked up to the Christian wife the one who has an amazing family with children and loves her husband unconditionally (well from outside appearances anyway). I knew the only way she became this perfect picture was because she was always connecting with the Lord and I knew thats exactly what I needed to do.

I had heard of a bible study that was started by an advo mom that started small but became a family of over 10k women. I am so blessed to be apart of this study of women who are growing together spiritually and emotionally. Our last study was called Seamless, learning the bible as one whole story.
In the past I had used by bible as a clutch. Had a bad day, opened by Bible. Needed strength, opened by Bible. Needed love, opened my Bible. I wasn't reading or using His word daily and thats where I knew led to my weakness. This study really helped with my accountability to read his word and connect with him every single day.

This month our study is Proverbs. The study runs till the end of the month. One book for every day of the month. Like I mentioned before part of my personal growth is to grow spiritually and to learn to love my man even at his weakest. I am excited to learn and become a true Proverbs woman and for his word to help me grow in ways I never intended.

Today was Proverbs 3.
This is what spoke to me the most.

3 Let love and faithfulness never leave you;
 bind them around your neck,
write them on the tablet of your heart
Then you will win favor and a good name
 in the sight of God and man.
Trust in the Lord with all your heart
and lean not on your own understanding;
in all your ways submit to him,
and he will make your paths straight.
In the past I have always trusted him, but never fully submitted myself to Him. I never allowed or trusted Him enough to make paths or set up plans for me. 
13 Blessed are those who find wisdom
 those who gain understanding,
for she is more profitable than silver
and yields better returns than gold.
She is more precious than rubies;
nothing you desire can compare with her.
Long life is in her right hand
in her left hand are riches and honor.
Her ways are pleasant ways,
and all her paths are peace.

She is a tree of life to those who take hold of her;

those who hold her fast will be blessed.

I need to learn to step back and find compassion and understanding when others are frustrated at something or more importantly with me. I need to learn to let go and find peace that certain things cannot be changed and they are the way they are for a reason.